Im On The Rise

Well, Its been a little while since my last post. Let me tell you that a lot has happened since too. Now I am posting a new beginning, still am, though again there was a pause. I just don't get why life just keeps on throwing things into my life which involves pausing the most important parts of me, the parts that make me...ME! Let me get started. So, I finally took the step again to order Shakeology. It has been 10 months, 9 days since my last Shakeology. So, it was an extreme excitement in my life. I was like a child in the candy store. This package came with the Neapolitan flavors. Chocolate, strawberry and vanilla. I have always been a fan of shakeology but will be honest with you. I drank it when I was like starving or something because I would still eat regular food right after. That's is not how it works at all. In fact it equals as a meal. Whether breakfast, lunch, dinner or snack. It is actually well filling and great for you.

The last time I was working out, I had two weeks left. My life got hectic as usual. My daughter graduated 8th grade and was going into high school in the fall and we went on a mini trip to celebrate and when I got back my arthritis in my hip was acting up and finally 3 weeks after it was gone I was working so much. I restarted were I left off but something happened either at work or home that gave me a huge pinch nerve/inflamed disc in my L5-L7. I couldn't walk, let alone move without pain for a month. I was even out from work. Worst long month possible. I wont lie, it took a lot out of me mental, spiritually and physically. I was so depressed but no the depressed as I use to be, I was not over eating or under eating. I was eating horribly at all. I only ate what my body could handle but I did my best to give it healthy choices. I wasn't going to back down even if I was in intense pain for a month. So, it was quiet a long 10 months since the last workout as well. It seemed so long, I thought about it on a daily basis but for some reason my body rejected doing it. To me that's crap. I also ordered a new workout program called 21 Day Fix. I have heard tons of great things about it. However, I wouldn't find out till I restarted and completed T25 alpha and beta. I started shakeology on a Sunday along with the 21 Day Fix meal plan and I was doing great. Loving the idea of eating on a schedule and planning my meals. I looked forward to something. I even did t25 Monday morning with my hubby before going to work. IT was an amazing feeling to do it again, but needs to be reconquered again! I felt so much weight on the right side of my entire leg.

Then on day 3 at night I started feeling not well. The next morning I woke up with the flu that my youngest son had transferred it to e while I took care of it. I couldn't eat or drink with out that want to throw up and pain in my stomach feeling. I had the flu..I was really frustrated. I just started eating healthy and working out and this. I don't know admittedly if I believe in tests quite yet but I want to stay this was some sort of test to see how strong I was and how I react and bounce back. Yes, I wasn't feeling my best by day to but I woke up determined to feel better and I wasn't going to waste time in bed. Though I would say when I am sick I get quite time and time to clear my thoughts. Okay, so I return to work and I am glad. I am little off kilter but ok. And so I want to bring something up that has been on my heart fro a week. It is something that could be talked about a very long time so I will make it quick. I work at a fast food restaurant and I do my walk around to clean up, I see couples out to eat and what do they do... at least 60% of them are eating while typing on the phone on the social network. Isnt eating suppose to be about enjoying quite time and break away from the social norm? I can prove my statistics but I see with my own eyes people eating, sitting down and on their phone, it makes me wonder if this is another way that obesity exists. Yes, logically your suppose sit and enjoy meals but when there is a negative environmental aspect with it, doesn't seem to be the right way to go. But I will say who am I to judge. I unfortunately do the same. This society has made it a norm to sit on social network while eating together instead of eating and communicating as a family.

Its been a week since my whole 21 day fix meal started and rest assure I started over because of the flu bug. Its a new day..

I woke up after only 4 hours of sleep eager to get going. Everything was clean in the house, kids and hubby were fed and ready for the day. Now its me time. I started out with a healthy and smaller breakfast but I haven't realized over the year I am not really a breakfast person anymore. I use to stress about it, but not no more. I eat what my body can like and handle. I wont over do it. Now I am off to start the day...I will you posted. Reminder life throws you curves balls. You can ignore them or hit them with your force and be the best you can be. God Bless!

Through The Dust Storm brings Pause & Silence

Hey Everyone!!! Its been a little while since I have been on and let me tell you, I have felt like I have been through so many different kinds of storms (metaphorically speaking of course). As a busy wife, mother, employee, (My own) boss, homemaker, and more, I had my time to be so busy hadn't had time for much of anything else. I would do same repetition over and over again. Household/family, work, household/family, sleep, repeating over and over again. It has been real frustrating because that has been my constant thing to do everyday for the longest time. Isn't there something wrong with that repetition??????? YES THERE IS! The answer is me!! Now there is nothing wrong with taking care of the household and family...its actually very important. Working at a 9-5 type of job, well is there is nothing wrong with working very hard and taking care of your family financially. Now sleep...no doubt...got to have it (PERIOD). These important facts I do are extremely important in my daily life. But how I suppose to do all those if ME is at my best. Honestly, its been since May 2014 that I have did my last workout, my last run, my last clean eating challenge and so forth. Life has pushed me so many different kinds of storms that I have decided to pause at what I was doing. I just stopped...didn't think twice at all. Everyday that went by I got use to not doing any of what once extremely important to my life...it brought the true real healthy me out...I love it so much. SO, IF I LOVED IT WHY DID I STOP????? IF IT WAS GOOD MORE ME AND I HAD GREAT RSULTS, WHY DID I STOP? Life has its way of suddenly creating different kinds of storms to give you. I call mine, "DUST STORMS". Why dust storms you say. Well, dust storms are rare, but when they do appear they can be dangerous. You can give your best effort to push through but one day you give up until the day the final dust is gone and the sky is beautifully clear again. My reaction to that is...Why stop because it gets real intense and hard. Keep going! If its more difficult then don't do as much...its about doing the best you can, not giving up all together. So, the next time your storm hits push through. If your not able to do one thing. Change it up a bit, its called modify. There is nothing wrong with it. You be surprise what modification can do for you. Find a MOTTO and place it in one spot in front of you or many places. It will keep you motivated. I should know from my many years of experience. This is my MOTTO: I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHICH STRENGTHENS ME!!

The Light May Dim But Fire Will Never Goes Out

Today is an unusual day for me. I woke up on this cold January 8, 2015 feeling tired as normal but something in me just reappeared. The whole saying, "Once was lost now is found was driven to my head and heart! It was driven that everytime I thought of one thing a car kept popping in my head. I was driving!! Or my favorite visual was me running like I'm never ran before and past the finish line! Even I saw myself punching, kick boxing and doing karate! It was like something was telling me its time to "Drive" forward and stop being parked. Parked meaning since end May 2014 my life has kept my healthier physical lifestyle on pause because I let everything in my life come before my well-being. There is only one me. I've had in my whole life-drive, determination, strive to better, willingness to learn, to help others and so on. It seems like I don't mean to but sporadically my mind overcomes my heart and decides to push it aside. I suppose it a norm for us, we are human after all. Through the years, the flame has been distinguished but it must have a special fuel because no matter how much water, dirt or what not it re-lights. Matter a fact it is brighter than ever! So, I'm witness to tell you that you may fall but its always in you to get back up! God Bless!

The Eating Habit that stuck like glue!

Its finally snowing here in Minnesota and Christmas is just couple days behind us. Its funny how the main things on my mind is being a healthier me! My 1st question for ya'll is this: 1)What do you do with the leftovers after the holidays? 2nd Q:) How did you do? 3rd Q) Did you still eat your favorite holiday foods or did you pick another alternative? Well, as for me, here is my outcome. Christmas Eve went to my Grandmother's House and we ate of course different types of cheese, meats and crackers but also cookies, bars and pies. With little Holiday alcohol drink. We had our traditional Oyster Stew and Swedish (not German like I thought) Potato Sausage and non-traditional pizza. I was so busy that I can say I ate a good handful of garlic curds, salami, two of my grandma's (1/2 tsp size) homemade fudge, 1 white cranberry pistachio fudge (1\2 tsp size), and a bowl of oyster stew with 1/2 cup of oyster crackers and 2 Swedish potato sausage sandwich (on smaller deli roll. It seems like a lot but it wasn't too bad. My holidays in past was so much worse. I'm really proud of myself. Between watching my children, talking to family, trying fix my laptop and help clean up.. Didn't have time to each much. So, I realized more busy I am, less I need or want to eat. As for Christmas Day, got pretty hectic for me. I nibbled on turkey and am for couple hours, it was a pinch of turkey here or ham there. It was alot, ate probably 1 cup of each in those two hours. I was busy drinking wine, opening up Christmas presents with family, taking family photos and non the least waiting for two late dishes that was in the oven. So, I finally got to eat, I had a small spurgle of my two favorites, Scallop Corn and Green Bean Casserole, oh yea, cranberries my fav. But I still did great. Desserts were in front of me and I munch on a cookie and one serving of sweet potato pie with whip cream. I have learned to nor keep myself from favorite foods cuz I will won't it more, and then over eat. So, I eat at well portions. I haven't been as active as I like. It will change because I take my experience with Christmas this year to be a blessing. I am so blessed that I was able to eat the way I did and had control. I see that its still inside me, the determination and tenacity to keep going. I haven't had the most perfect eating habits but I'm proud to say that what certain foods comes in front of me. I don't lose focus, I don't overeat, and my mind understand what is right and wrong! A learning lesson from constant reminder of what's better for me. I'm so glad it stuck like glue to me and I'm not whining about having a after holiday belly ache. All I can say is that I must be proud of myself, I didn't fall back, I had to just readjust a little bit. Its inside me to do this, just like its inside you too!! God Bless! PS: you have your future in just a pinch. Grab it!

Nothing To Lose is Actually Everything To Gain

On a night like this I realized I had survived yet again another mental beat up I gave myself. I am so human that I would say I screwed up. I was on track with cleaning eating, my running and workouts were on a consistent schedule and even ready to battle for my body while I was on a few days vacation. As it came time to celebrate & have fun, my family & I had went to the WaterPark Of America for my daughter's 8th grade graduation. I was ready for the battle within, I was so pumped that I had believed with my heart that I would achieve great while still having fun. I ended having a blast while on vacation and my diet, let's say it was a battle because everytime we have company from out of town, some amazing home cooked food is prepared. I mean its like soul food with a little jazz. It's so great. Plus, our regular favorite of chinese food was bought and because there was more people rather enjoying their food than being picky, I was ruled out and had to deal. I had got to comfortable with the vacation, fun and family that mentally my mind decided to take control and what was of routine prior to vacation ended up getting kicked hard, kicked so hard it went on vacation. I knew mentally what was going on but my mind made excuses when my heart tried to be logical. It eventually kept on being pushed, the phrase, " I would do it tomorrow" or " I will start fresh on monday" came out of my mouth.

This morning was truly a new day. I had read a devotion and the title was called "Nothing To Lose". At first, I didn't think anything of it. Well until something was spoke by my husband than actually made quite sense. We were talking in general about something but then I said, "Take a photo, it last longer!" LOL, it was so funny because I always use to believe that fact. I am so wrong. My husband said, " Your mind can take a mental photo and have it in your mind forever, where is the photo, words can be lost forever by some form on destruction. Then my daughter, I'm going to be serious and this is sort of and maybe embarrasing to me. She said, "You have lately said one thing and did another. You are always pushing it for the next time. It isn't like you at all." She has spoke the truth. I don't know completely why or how it started but my my mind literally has went mental, it literally is fighting the real me. Then in a deep of a instance, I had realized something, which it may have in me the whole time but I just thought. "I really truly have nothing to lose, because I am right now at a position where I am comfortable and nothing has happened to get me forward in the future. Though I do have a million times more to gain something. Matter fact, I could gain a lot by believing I can do all things through Christ Jesus." I don't believe in gambling, but this type is different. I see it as not gambling but walking on faith, or walking on water. I wont know what I will gain unless I take a leap of faith. I rather GAIN EVERYTHING through God than Lose everything through the fear that is placed in me. You know now that I am coming to end, I am realizing that Nothing to lose, is actually everything to gain. The reason I say that is because you may lose something, and like me, it may seem to be something you can pretend to be, but in actuality its really you but hiding the true you not just from yourself but God and His possibilities that He believes in you. So, you lose one but you gain more. So in actuality you have gained at least two times what you have lost. When one door closes many more will open! God Bless!

Sometimes Starting Over Is Good

So, since the last time I blogged you all, it was Saturday and a lot has happened since then. I told ya I would let things go with the flow and not stress. I was definitely right about that. Sunday, was my relaxing day sort of, I went to work but all I could is think about how I could do better for my "WHOLE" me! Every time I thought of something I wondered how it would benefit me for the positive or the negative. Now I wasn't under fear but I was going to learn how to take each moment and strive for the better, to be the better me! Let me say ever since I started to clean eat I have seen a change in the way I feel. I will say for personal note that, tho T.M.I., my stomach has been so much happier than it has been in years. Less than a month ago, I joined my 1st Clean Eat Challenge and let me say it was a bit challenging. The group had given us a grocery list & a meal plan to follow. I wasn't able to get everything on the list but I managed to work my way around it with substitutes along the same area of it. You know I truly looked forward to these meals. I felt the urgency to enjoy these meals like little pieces of heaven. Each meal, including snack was amazing and the best part I made time for them and I even took them on-the-go to work. I even got little upset when I missed a meal. Time to be honest, I am a human like all and I fall off the horse sort of speak which means I have many slip ups but I still plan on moving forward with this. It was a 14 day clean eating challenge and except for a couple few slips later evening I did great. Days 11-14 were on our own and had to make our own meal plans. Now I didn't make my own meals plans because my preparation wasn't the best and I was on vacation 12-14, but overall I did 75% out of 100%. I knew I needed readjust what I did and then do better. Once the clean eating challenge was done I ended checking my measurements and I saw some results. It made feel good and that if I keep it up, there will be more positive results. So, when I see its time, I will re-introduce the clean eating back into my life and it will become better than ever. I will do what ever I must to be healthier me. Excuse me but me being human is also being frustrated. Its unreal why because today started to feel great and when I can finally read my body than you know I must be doing something right. Today I woke up this morning feeling challenged and happy. I actually had a great day! Matter fact, I feel great. I felt that I could so much. As It shows on the top of this blog, I am pictured with my son(s) and I went back in the day when it first happened. The very first workout that I had did! Sweating to the Spirit by Donna Richardson. This workout took me almost a year to complete and I loved the challenge of it. This is where I began to love working out and love taking care of my body. I ended up doing my 1st part of Sweating To The Spirit plus Focus T25 Cardio Core back to back. It was incredible to do them both and feel amazing after! Its worth every moment that I push, sweat and whine (LOL). Overall, I will get the results I want & need. I mean you get other results from sitting on the couch or eating take out everyday without having exercise in your life. But who really wants that feeling! Doing this workout was the best feeling ever! It brought back memories of before I lost weight till now and I remember the real reasons why I really wanted to lose weight and be healthy. I figured out a great workout plan to do daily and keep my clean eating going. I know now I must at least do these steps first: 1) Clean Eat & listen to my body and how it reacts to food. 2) Stick to my workout routines and running schedule 3) drink water (my body = 120 oz.) So far that is all I got for today. Just remember Don't Give Up!! You Can Do It! No Excuses!! It starts somewhere, there is always a bottom to the top, a beginning to the next levels and so on!! Please, if you have any questions don't hesitate to contact me. I may babble on or even get a little boring but in general I am hear to help others.

Try Again!!

Greetings, I am back better than ever!!! It began with "Soaring2Fly" then went to "HealingWings". But now its "Barefoot, Sneaker, & Heel" Time. If you didn't know before "Soaring2Fly" was about my beginning journey to my healthy new lifestyle. Where "HealingWings" was about bouncing back after a serious injury hindering my ability to move forward to a new and better me. I will make a long story short. The title "Barefoot, Sneakers, & Heels" comes from 3 physical parts of me, sort of speak. You see Barefoot is because when I first started doing my workouts, I would do them barefoot. It was so much easier for me and it seem to be more funner at the time. As time went on, I transferred to sneakers. I need to rewind a bit first. Then than 6 months after I began to workout with my 1st workout, I began to start running. That was a challenge and a story by itself for another time,; However, while running my feet got adjusted to running with sneakers on so I decided why not keep the sneakers on while working out. It made it quite challenging of course and I will be honest, at times I wanted to give it up. After time i

t became easier. It must have made it easier because I began to run further, matter fact, I ran my first (around my house) unofficial 5k a month after starting. It was a great feeling and I am so glad I continued. That is that part I love of myself now, I DON'T GIVE UP, I don't let challenges get the best of me! I use it as fuel to move forward to something much greater! I know God gave me a purpose, honestly, I believe He gave me many purposes. Now, finally, heels, now, I will tell you I get wondering when I see in movies that they have actresses run in heels. It stumps me a bit because you would think it would be really hard. But then I thought again, yes, it may have been difficult at first for them but eventually got easier and easier for the to do it. That will be the same with me. So, in time, I will be able to run in heels. I can't say how long it will take me but I won't give without a fight. Plus, I will look good doing it too. :) So, while starting this new blog, let me explain something real quick. I will be taking it one-day-at-a-time! I use to be worried about what I have to share & seriously be worried because I would never had people commenting or following my other pages. Now those will be great and I will be so blessed if it starts to happen. But I know now that I am meant to share my journey PERIOD. That is the reason for my blogs. I have read others blog and if something they had blogged about caught my attention then I would read the article and take something out of it for myself. That is what I want others to get from my story. I want to be there to help others. There was times I hadn't got my help from things that I would love to get help & understanding from but I figure I might be the first one in that particular scenario; so, what best thing I could do is help others with the same or similar problems that I had. I am here to help as much as I can, and the only right now I can is share my story. This phrase I love, "When first you don't succeed, try again, let yourself try again, try again."