Nothing To Lose is Actually Everything To Gain

On a night like this I realized I had survived yet again another mental beat up I gave myself. I am so human that I would say I screwed up. I was on track with cleaning eating, my running and workouts were on a consistent schedule and even ready to battle for my body while I was on a few days vacation. As it came time to celebrate & have fun, my family & I had went to the WaterPark Of America for my daughter's 8th grade graduation. I was ready for the battle within, I was so pumped that I had believed with my heart that I would achieve great while still having fun. I ended having a blast while on vacation and my diet, let's say it was a battle because everytime we have company from out of town, some amazing home cooked food is prepared. I mean its like soul food with a little jazz. It's so great. Plus, our regular favorite of chinese food was bought and because there was more people rather enjoying their food than being picky, I was ruled out and had to deal. I had got to comfortable with the vacation, fun and family that mentally my mind decided to take control and what was of routine prior to vacation ended up getting kicked hard, kicked so hard it went on vacation. I knew mentally what was going on but my mind made excuses when my heart tried to be logical. It eventually kept on being pushed, the phrase, " I would do it tomorrow" or " I will start fresh on monday" came out of my mouth.

This morning was truly a new day. I had read a devotion and the title was called "Nothing To Lose". At first, I didn't think anything of it. Well until something was spoke by my husband than actually made quite sense. We were talking in general about something but then I said, "Take a photo, it last longer!" LOL, it was so funny because I always use to believe that fact. I am so wrong. My husband said, " Your mind can take a mental photo and have it in your mind forever, where is the photo, words can be lost forever by some form on destruction. Then my daughter, I'm going to be serious and this is sort of and maybe embarrasing to me. She said, "You have lately said one thing and did another. You are always pushing it for the next time. It isn't like you at all." She has spoke the truth. I don't know completely why or how it started but my my mind literally has went mental, it literally is fighting the real me. Then in a deep of a instance, I had realized something, which it may have in me the whole time but I just thought. "I really truly have nothing to lose, because I am right now at a position where I am comfortable and nothing has happened to get me forward in the future. Though I do have a million times more to gain something. Matter fact, I could gain a lot by believing I can do all things through Christ Jesus." I don't believe in gambling, but this type is different. I see it as not gambling but walking on faith, or walking on water. I wont know what I will gain unless I take a leap of faith. I rather GAIN EVERYTHING through God than Lose everything through the fear that is placed in me. You know now that I am coming to end, I am realizing that Nothing to lose, is actually everything to gain. The reason I say that is because you may lose something, and like me, it may seem to be something you can pretend to be, but in actuality its really you but hiding the true you not just from yourself but God and His possibilities that He believes in you. So, you lose one but you gain more. So in actuality you have gained at least two times what you have lost. When one door closes many more will open! God Bless!